Self sufficiency

This week, at the jumble sale I picked up a little trinket  and then promptly forgot about it. It's a little beach hut with a hook that was (once) attached, perfect for hanging up my dressing gown (oh the glamourous lives of fashion bloggers!)  I was determined to fix it and so I  pulled out probably the most functional thing I own; a pink flowery hammer whose handle unscrews to reveal a wealth of screwdrivers. This bad boy was bought for me a long time ago by my friend Mike. Whilst it may look 'girly' and even ineffectual, this little baby has proven its worth many times over. A little bit of ribbon and a few drawing pins later et voila! one hook ready to use :)

Whilst I'm sure that you are enjoying my exceedingly dull exciting D.I.Y adventure, this little project  got me thinking. How often do I pass over things that I could do because it would be easier to not add another little project to my growing workload? I am able to do these things and yet I let someone else do them or let them pass me by all together. I may not be able to wrestle a bear (yet) but I am more than capable of taking care of myself and I think I forget this sometimes. It's easy to hide behind my gender or my relationships with others but I am defined by more than just my chromosomes or who my partner or friends are. 

Yes, I'm THAT cool...
Whilst this is very rambly, I guess I am trying to say that the past few years have helped shape me and to find out exactly who Maria is. I don't know everything yet but I know she likes bright colours, nice clothes, good food and a cheeky cocktail (or two!) with friends. Blogging has inevitably been a part of this; the blogosphere has always been full of support and love [cue violins] and I have made some amazing friends. I think I have realised though that I CAN do things which I never thought possible and that it's even OK to worry, but that at the end of the day it's better to try surely? I could trot out even more clichés at this point (if you at first don't succeed... etc. etc.) but you aren't stupid and nor am I. I can survive anything that is thrown at me and what doesn't kill me, makes me stronger, right? (Sorry, I couldn't resist! :P) 

I have always thought that I was worried about being alone but I think it was actually worry about being left behind. I am fiercely competitive and whilst this can be a problem, I maintain that having a 'killer instinct' is a useful life tool (it's definitely NOT  just about "taking part"when playing board games!) As I get older though, I realise that it's better to be happy, whether alone or with other people.  I love my friends and family but I am able to be self-sufficient too which gives me a LOT more confidence as I prepare to enter the big bad world post university. 

Do you feel more confident as you get older? What's your biggest fear? 


ellieand said...

You're so right, I think Uni's taught us a lot! But er....we don't HAVE to grow up yet do we? x

Maria said...

Danni- Grow up?! I don't EVER plan to do that! :)

Maria xxx

daisychain said...

Beach house thing = amazing

You = amazing.

Win win x

Maria said...

Laura- Thank you love :)

Maria xxx

Lil said...

This is a really cute post. I think I've come a long way in these past few years too! X

Sherin said...

Hehe, well done on te DIY! The hammer/screwdriver looks not only cute, but useful as well. Defintiely one for all the fashion bloggers! Girl power! (I once fixed a small table).

Harriet said...

This post is awesome, I love it!

I definitely feel that I've grown a lot as I've grown up. I think blogging has been a massive part of that, it's given me so much confidence and taught me such a lot about myself.

Maria said...

Lil- Thank you :) I know! It's brilliant though :)

Sherin- Thank you :) I know, check out my DIY skillz :P I am impressed, I've not yet graduated to actual DIY :)

Harriet- Thank you :) I think blogging is a MAJOR part of that (along with uni)

Maria xxx

Bethany Mason said...

I think you've hit the nail on the head (with your awesome hammer) in saying that you CAN do more than your realise. I think this is true for everyone and I'm beginning to learn about myself as well (and you're right, blogging makes a huge difference in this).

However, I would say that part of survival is learning which battles to fight. You say you think of things you could do but are worried about your growing workpile - I understand this. Part of my problem is I start something and never finish it. We need to learn when to give something ago, and when to know that we've got enough on our plates already.

Maria said...

Bethany- I think that is SO true, I am trying not to get overwhelmed but also to enjoy and challenge myself- I think it's SO easy to get stuck into a rut and I don't want to do that!

Maria xxx