Dark days and nights...



As you may have noticed, I have been  blogging a lot less recently and that is partly due to the change in seasons (winter is not a blogger's best friend) and partly because I have been feeling more than a little overwhelmed recently. There's been nothing specific that has triggered this, it's just that life seems to have sped up whilst my energy levels have dropped. Quite frankly I haven't had the energy to keep up with the relentless process of photograph, write, promote, repeat and blogging has suffered as a result. Last night, this all came to a head (cue me bursting into tears) so Mark and I decided to go for a walk and spent about an hour and a half wandering around Cheltenham, making plans and talking through everything, which despite everything was actually really nice. 

In order to try and get a handle on everything again, we decided to draw up an evening schedule for in the week in order to allow time together going for walks and exploring the lovely place we live in and also some 'self care' time (Rosie's post on this is brilliant and really struck a chord with me) which could be anything from reading, blogging or even having a bath. I think I have always been torn between missing out on things and wanting to make the most of any free time we have but at what cost? I have been feeling very overwhelmed for a long time and I was physically and emotionally exhausted last night but I slept through the night for the first time in a long time. Isn't it amazing what a bit of fresh air and a good chat can do?

I don't know quite what this post is trying to say really, I guess I just wanted to get some of the muddled thoughts out of my head onto the page. Life is never easy but it has been harder than usual recently so please do bear with me whilst I get my head back on track... I would also love to hear about anything that has helped you when you have been feeling anxious or stressed too, please do share!
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9 comments

laura said...

sending you warm cuddles and festive thoughts xx

Unknown said...

Sometimes just going through the process of writing down how we feel mproves things, so I hope this post does a little of that for you. I find that going for a walk helps me when I’m feeling overwhelmed, and it definitely helps when I go with my husband and we have the time to talk about things. Hope things start to ease up soon, Niki

Jo said...

Sorry to hear you've been struggling recently, Maria. Mark sounds like an absolute star though. Going for a walk and having a good, clearing chat is one of the best things you could do. Not much else I can suggest I'm afraid as I'm generally an anxiety riddled person. Sometimes I wish someone would just whack me with a hammer so I could fall asleep!

The Style Rawr said...

I can totally relate to this. Sometimes having a busy life + blogging = too much. Breaks are good and so is spending quality time with those dearest to us. Your readers will be waiting when you're ready to blog again!

Tara xx

Admin said...

Just acknowledging your feelings will be a major help. When I'm feeling stressed, I just tend to shut down, be alone and enjoy quiet and my thoughts. I read, do things that have been on my to-do list (forever) light candles, have lots of hot drinks and sometimes have a nice yoga stretch.

I hope you're feeling better now.

Sash x

Chloe said...

Ah, here I have been. Work, progress, hobbies, families, planning, and ohmygod have we remembered to send a birthday card to that person we haven't seen in 3 years. I think I'm feeling your take on taking a step back from it all- I'm terrible at it, and T keeps having to drag me away from the business at the end of the day.

Super love, and hope some time taken to look after yourself is helping calm things down.

Natasha said...

I completely understand this feeling - I feel like I've only just gotten my blogging bug back. Hope you're well and looking after yourself! - Tasha xxx

Winnie said...

Oh Maria. I know the feeling well but I also use blogging as a kind of creative outlet. Though sometimes all I want to do when I come home from work is sit and watch tv or do nothing at all. I have fallen out of a pattern with blogging too - I usually blog every Sunday but now it's as and when! Don't put too much pressure on yourself, after all blogging should be fun so sometimes not blogging as regularly might just help you :) xx

Sarah said...

Sending lots of love! xxx